dottiemae

i’ve been away from home since my college years. i’ve been used to it already. living life independently. have to budget my own money, clean my own room, wash my own clothes (yeah right, magpalaba ra diay gihapon to…), etc. after college, i’ve been to different places in the phils. still, i was doing fine. with my friends, i don’t feel home sick. not until now feeling a bit down lately. there are a lot of things on my mind. HELP! missing home a lot. missing my bee terribly. missing my family. missing my friends. missing cebu. missing my normal life. but i have no choice. i have to stay in this LIVING HELL (read: our office) for 1 year. today is our 8th month so i still have 4 months to suffer. i know i can do it but i don’t feel motivated already. with all the things happening in our office nowadays, who will be motivated?!?! i pity the agents who just joined the company a month ago. the more i think about it, the more i get depressed. i thought i can do it. i thought i can handle anything. a high school batchmate told me to go out and unwind. or go shopping. i wish i could. but then, i don’t have someone to go out with. everyone is busy with their jobs. (then why am i not?!) me and my housemates have different rest days. and it’s the end of the month so we’re still waiting for our salaries to be credited to our accounts. hahay. i miss my cebu days. when all i have to do is wake up in the morning, take a bath and dress up. go to work for 9 hours.  and see my bee after. hang out with him alone. or with our friends. go to the malls. watch a movie. shopping. have dinner. have some drinks. go to places. i miss talking to my bee about things. about our day, our future, etc. i miss talking to dad, mom, twins and marga about anything. i miss going out with the twins. night outs or just chilling around. i miss shopping around with marga. i miss our family lunches/dinners every sunday. i miss dad’s steak and fries. i miss talking to my friends about any chismax. i really miss everything. huhuhu! esp now that the twins are also in cebu already. and bee’s graduating soon. (congrats in advance bee!) well, my life in dubai was fun. until these past few days. my bee’s cuz told me that i should be happy coz i am fortunate enough to get a job abroad. well yeah, it’s true. but i’m not happy anymore. and i’m confused. i don’t know if i’m still gonna stay here after my 1 year. look for a better job (a well compensated job that is) and wait for bee to follow here. (he’ll be graduating this oct already. just needs to finish his ojt this sem. then next sem, review for his may 2007 board exam) OR should i go back home for good. stay in cebu, look for a job and see what happens next. so what do you think??? well i don’t know what to think anymore. i’m confused and i’m depressed. and i’m missing cebu a lot. oh well, til next time guys. — DottieMae —

*** angel: jinx, happy trip and enjoy ur "summer" vacation in manila and in bora. will miss our YM chats everyday. don’t 4get to post pics as soon as you get back oks?

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